Big events in a person’s life have more impact than, I think, we are willing to admit as individuals. If you are happy, it is subjective to wherever your happiness stems from, or rather from whatever causes you to be happy. If you are no longer happy for that reason then you forget why you were happy in the first place, understand? It's even more so difficult to get out of being sad. Sadness is a pathetic word in itself. Children of a nursery age are taught to grasp the idea of 'sad' and thus for me to ever say 'I feel sad' makes me feel childish. It's the connotations that arrive hand in hand with being 'sad' that are what get you down.
That moment where you think nothing can ever make you consider being happy again is something so inconceivable that it hurts some to even think about it. How can your feelings, something you supposedly create, make you feel at quite literally an all-time low? I hate that when this shroud of sadness takes over it runs everything you do. You feel sick to the point that eating is not even an option, not even something you'd usually be crazy for; even though you know you're hungry beyond usual reason. Being sad is confusing, for everyone has their own grasp of it and hence they deal with it in different ways. I'm sure anyone reading this can familiarise themselves with a low point in their lives and remember what they did, or rather didn't do. It can quite literally make you not want to do things that would usually make you happier beyond belief.
Confusion shrouds a sad mind. It's true. Talking can help but there's only so much you can expect someone to say to anyone in a sad situation, especially if they cannot empathise with your situation. Like I said, each have their own opinions. Sadness is subjective in itself, it's a feeling and thus derives from yourself and can only be extinguished by yourself too, as difficult as that sounds. Then comes anger, which travels with sadness in many cases, being sad beyond belief could make even the most reasonable person feel like they are boiling up to the brim. Being unhappy makes you feel scared, the darkest considerations of your mind appear and at times they are all you can think about. That queasy, nauseous feeling you unfortunately receive is a stark reminder that your emotions can really run you. You can't be sick, and yet you feel it; devastating.
Writing this makes me feel quite foolish, I hate blog posts from other users that crave attention by deriving some sort of reasoning towards human emotion. I'm not trying to do that, rather I'm putting across my opinion, for is that not all we have at times? I hate that now as I continue to create this piece I feel like the so many points I wished to put across are now meaningless. Maybe that is a result of how I feel, or maybe that's just true to an extent at this moment. Sometimes it's harder than you imagine to put how you really feel down into words, and in all honesty I felt it easier to write about a feeling rather than how I feel as it helps me consider the eventualities and results of some emotions. It's easier to detach yourself from a situation you may be in than to share it with everyone possible. All in all, the most problematic part of feeling sad is the confusion that you feel, trust me.
